Do Not Judge A Book By Its Cover

You may see a girl with the biggest smile on her face and not expect a thing.
But you don't know.
You don't know what goes on in that girls mind
You don't know what she goes through at home
At work
At school
In her heart.
She's screaming painfully out loud but her voice is drowned out.
Its shielded by the facade she created perfectly.
She shaped and molded that mask with her bare hands and expects nothing to break through.
Its been about 6 years since that mask was put on and not one person has reached out to carefully remove it.
People have just looked past it and that girl is getting sick and tired of it.

Will someone, anyone take it off?

A little about me :)

1. I own every single Harry Potter book and i'm sure i've read them 3 times EACH.
2. I don't leave anywhere without my ipod.
3. I think im the only teenage girl i know who can actually survive without her phone.
4. I HATE WHEN I CAN HEAR PEOPLE CHEW.
5. I move a lot. I've lived in 3 states and have moved 15 times within those states.
6. I don't have a relationship with my mom. People say they feel sorry for me but it's normal to me. It's been like this for as long as i can remember.
7. I'm obsessed with twilight. I watch the movie EVERY night to fall asleep.
8.I eat a bowl of fruity pebbles every night and morning.
9. I love painting my nails.
10. I'm only quiet and seem standoffish because i've let to many people in to let me down.

Back in THOSE Days

Have you ever just seen a picture or object that reminds you of someone from your past? I bet you got those butterflies in your stomach. That's exactly what just happened to me.

Annoying.

i am so SICK of you telling me what to do.
I think i already know i need to do good and graduate.
I'm pretty sure i'm the one in school dealing with all this.
I have the classes, i'm doing the work, i'm dealing with the teachers.
I'm here everyday. Your NOT. I'm not one to complain about anything but oh my goodness.
JUST STOP.

Yaay! My parents came home on Friday and surprised me with my new car :) Also on Friday i found out i was hired at Carter's in Tracy!

Memories

This picture is about 13 years old. I recently found it and it brings back wonderful memories of growing up in New York. I miss my family like crazy and i hope to see them soon.

I'm not really good at these titles?

But anyways, Spring Break. Isn't it supposed to be all fun and going to the beach or being outside with the sun shining? But in reality it rained. It rained almost everyday, i swear i thought it was a hurricane. This was ridiculous! I couldn't do anything and to top it off the gloomy weather makes me tired. So i was lazy. I think the only good thing that happened was i landed myself a job interview. I'm pretty stoked about it and i'm hoping i get it. If i get the job then that means i get a car and im crossing my fingers!

I really don't like staying home sick because then boredom creeps up behind me and attacks. But today i'd like to thank boredom for letting me wander onto this video. This girl covers my favorite band and does it beautifully:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rd3I_gGPUCs

Here We Go Again.

Goodness Gracious! I can not believe i met you. Do not get me wrong, please dont because i cherish every moment with you. Why couldnt we have spoken to each other earlier? Your gone and im leaving. Sunday's are the worst for us but Thursdays are bliss. Its most definately not love but i dont care for anyone else like i do for you. I know you'll always be here for me no matter, i strongly believe that. Every little that you do makes me smile. Its comforting and new to me how you treat me. You notice everything and remember the little things. I think i'm pretty lucky to have met you that day and will always remember it :)

Highschool.

I am completely over high school. I've never wanted to be here since the first day my freshman year. I cried and pleaded to be homeschooled and now its all done. I really can not believe how fast its gone by. So many memories were created and some i'd like to forget. Just thinking this morning about how many days left until graduation made me a little choked up. There's a little part of me that doesn't want to leave. Seeing the same people almost everyday for 4 years and then thats it. Gone. Mostly everyone going their separate ways leaving this small town and going to college. And there's me. Yeah i'll be living down south come June but who knows what i'll be doing. Things with me do not usually go as planned. Like lets see, i was supposed to graduate highschool in arizona but look where i am? Obviously not. But all i know is that i want to be doing something that makes ME happy.

Welll goodluck to all my Senior classmates<3

Oh its been awhile since ive blogged and i blame that on being too busy. I've been caught up with a lot of work to do. Well at least i only have 3 1/2 months left of high school. Man i am so going to miss it though.

WRITERS BLOCK.
I've been dealing with this for about a week now. I can write something but its not up to my writing abilities. Im just dealing with way too much.

So tomorrow im having dinner with an exboyfriend for my birthday and i am EXTREMELY nervous!
Ugh i don't know what to do.

Help!

I cant wait til Formal on Saturday. It'll be the first time im going even though im a senior. SAD I KNOW.

Me and Yas have too much fun with webcams!:) Hahaha

Yes! Yesterday we all found out that my stepdad got the job in San Diego!! Im so ecstatic, no one has any clue. I'll be finishing out my senior yera though here in Manteca, but come June and i'll officially be a SoCal resident <3

Birthday!

My 18th birthday is in 19 days! Im soooooo excited :)

My First Post!

Yaaaay! Hahaha :)

Today i auditioned for the ROP Fashion Show at school today, mainly because my friend wanted me too. It seems like a lot of fun and its my senior year so why not just do it? Hopefullly its a good time :)